My heart has been tested & broken these past few days .. watching this made me feel inspired.





Thanks to my Mings and my Gee for piecing back my broken heart and reminding me that I am never alone.  You are both beautiful inside and out, and I will always hold you near and dear to my heart.  I thank God everyday that he gave me two sisters .. one through blood and one through friendship to grow old with.

Have you ever met someone that told you a story that blew your mind? I met someone today.  She shared her painful story, and I was blown away.  It felt like my ears were bleeding, my tummy in knots, and my heart ached. 

I can't sleep.  My body and mind are both tired, but this woman's voice is inside my head.  I can see the pain in her eyes, the anger in her story, and it's as if I can feel her broken heart inside of me.  I've heard many gut-wrenching stories in my young life.  I was active in church all through high school and into college.  It wasn't uncommon for people to feel comfortable sharing their stories with me, but today was different.

I felt so overwhelmed and dizzy.  My human nature wants to put this story away, but I feel like God made me meet this person for a reason.  I prayed for her all through the drive home and before I put my kids to sleep.

I asked my husband for advice about this situation.  He told me he thinks that maybe I have that gentle touch that can guide her to healing.  He thinks maybe she's shared this story to a lot of people but cannot find peace, and maybe God allowed us to meet so we can walk there together.  He reminded me that it was just last week that another woman did this same exact thing, when I just met her.  She was different in that you can tell from her facial expression that she was surprised she was spilling her guts out to me.   After telling me her also heart breaking story almost in tears, she walked away.  She looked at me as if to say please erase our conversation from your memory.  I wanted to hug her.  He reminded me that people often find God's love in the eyes of a stranger.

Could it really be?  It's been so long since I've been here.  I feel so ill-equipped .. unprepared.  It's only recently that I am slowly making my way back to HIM.  Next month my husband and I along with my best friend and his wife will be on a religious journey, and with my son's baptism next week ... *sigh*  I can't even put it into words.  I know I'm being tested and I just need prayers.